The deeper you stick it in your vein
The deeper the thoughts, there’s no more pain
I’m in heaven, I’m a god
I’m everywhere, I feel so hot
It’s not a habit, it’s cool, I feel alive
If you don’t have it you’re on the other side
I’m not an addict (maybe that’s a lie)
It’s over now, I’m cold, alone
I’m just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
(Nothing means a thing to me)
That’s from K’s Choice’s Not an Addict. I woke up on my alterna-sobriety birthday in the hospital recovering from a medication overdose initated by a well-meaning doctor. That, after two days previous of being totally out of it and very near death, was the first day I was aware – me – again.
Happy pseudo-birthday to me.
(ephemeral)