I might be going to work for them although some of the feedback I got well post the second person I spoke to kind of put me in a funk. I know that my J2E skills are lacking and I still rely on tutorials when I have to mess with it when I work on a contract. The thing is that I always manange to get everything to work, the client to be happy, and I learn something to add to my catalog.
My therapist would remind me at this point in time that I’m hard on myself and that I need to losen up and not take the criticism so roughly. For some reason, I just can’t. I guess it’s that when I first was contacted about the position and did the first interview, I was quite excited. I knew WHO was contacting me and WHAT that meant and I was honored, a little blown away that little-ol’-me would be catching their interest, and that they might actually want to really talk to me about working for them.
I’d had therapy between the times I talked to the first person and the second person at Alfresco and realized that I was having a bad Asperger’s day and that my weak point, my verbal skills and social interaction skills, were going to be utilized. It made me nervous. I felt as though I flubbed up some very basic things when talking to the second person at Alfresco. The e-mail I received later confirmed that. I just couldn’t explain things verbally.
I said that I was willing to send code and some of my portfolio of the sites that I’ve worked on, but then I realized that because of Interzone and the projects I worked on there, a number of the NDAs and Binding Arbitration Agreements that were attached to my contracts that I can’t send the overwhelming majority of things I’ve done. Then again, most of them were in what Interzone targeted: the porn industry – and those guys like their privacy. The rest of my catalog is consisted of small sites that don’t all use a CMS behind them. The first site I ever fully developed and implemented was Warehouse23 when I was at Steve Jackson Games and their Retail Sales Manager and Assistant to the President. You can find out all about the Warehouse23 launch, Jackie and I completing it, and everything else by looking through the 1998 archives on the main SJG site.
I think I’m going to contact the first person I spoke to at Alfresco and see what I can do. I’m learning the J2E right now and Rob Landley is going to tutor me hardcore over the next two weekeneds so that I get it all down tight. I’m looking forward to actually, finally getting Java/J2E fully under my belt even if I don’t get the job at Alfresco, so . . .
I think I’ll call now. Maybe it would just be best to get this off my chest.
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